Quick break before cramming for Finals

• So far, I am doing extremely well in this class. Of course, just as in other business classes, we'd have to work in teams. Frankly, I can do these projects, term papers, dissertations, thesis all on my own but this is teamwork. I feel like I'm always "on top" of our projects but my other team mates are not. They always come to me and ask me how to do things, it does get exhausting sometimes. 
• I split the work with my team and when I read their parts, I'm worried. I'm aiming for an A on this final project and it does not look like an A paper to me. Eh, oh well. What can you do. due date is so close. I trusted that they understand and can do their own work, however, I was wrong. I already got a team mate who became hostile because I asked him to re-do his analysis. Sigh. Frustrated. What can we do. We do what we can do best.

I'm enjoying my Samsung Galaxy Nexus Prime i515 and Technology

• This phone has so many functions and it can do so many things. When I'm on a road trip, I can even tether my phone to my tablet and watch movies. I'm telling ya, the future will be all digital. It has already begun. Most of the students now carry tablets, smartphones. Hopefully, in the near future, tablets can be as functional as lap tops. According to Wallstreet, Apple has already begun working on getting all their MAC books with the "application" platform. Hopefully, tablets can be as powerful as lap tops and the keyboard is removable. 

Facebook and Instagram

• Well, you've all heard the news by now. Facebook acquired Instagram. FB is smart. Great Strategy. Good for them. If they didn't do, it would have been some big company like Google. Gotta keep innovating ya know? continuous innovation. Right after they announce Instagram for Androids, the acquisition happened. 
• I have an account.

Consulting Firm

• A good friend of mine suggested that I start a consulting firm with a doctor that she knows. I am excited. After this semester is over, I can give my full commitments. 

 Marvel's The Avengers

• It is really good. A must watch. I am glad I watched it. 

I was bedridden all yesterday and last night.  When it happens, it happens all on the right side of the head. And it lasts a whole day and night. Mine lasts about 20 hours. Such terrible pain. Pain Reliever pills only lessens the pain but it doesn't take it away. It is as if it has a mind of its own. Ocular Migraines, from the skull to the back of the neck. I wish there is a cure for it and take it away forever. I hate these migraines. 

I was absolutely moved. I cried. I love her speech; it is so powerful. Watch the movie "The Help". I'm buying a copy of the movie!! (sorry bear with the 24 seconds commercial) You can FAST FORWARD to 1:30 that's when her speech begins.

Journal: Week#1 of 2012: 

HAPPY NEW YEAR  ~ Happy 2012! 

 I hope the weather gets warmer. So this past week:

Jan. 01, 2012 - was my mom's birthday! She would have been 55! I know she is in a better place and isn't suffering from cancer anymore. My husband, youngest brother and I went to visit her at her resting place. Burnt some incense and prayed for the well being of everyone and told her how much I missed her.

Jan. 04, 2012- For the first time, I cooked beef stew for dinner and it did not taste good! lol. So we ended up ordering Thai food. And I invited my sister and her fiance over too prior to the food disaster lol. Luckily, her fiance is a good cook. He made curry rice and another dish from India. So his cooking went well with our ordered Thai Food. It is okay, perhaps I will cook the stew better next time. Yes, it is true, I'm not the greatest cook but I am learning.

Jobs - For the rest of the week, I have been profusely looking for an Ophthalmic Assistant Position or Optician position in an Ophthalmology. I'm a good employee, I worked so hard. bad luck that they laid me off because I was asking for raises (which they gave but could not commit to it) and they couldn't afford me. Look up the movie "Morning Glory", the gal in there reminds me of myself. The feelings that she portrayed was exactly how I felt. There's not many job postings on CL for these positions, like 10 listings? And most of those listings do not have the criteria that I am looking for in a company for me to grow with. I guess all the good ones are taken and/or gets snatched as soon as it is open. And, people wouldn't want to leave a "great" office. I have been trying to get in these medical clinics but apparently you need to know someone from the inside. I pray I can in one of those clinics. 

Great offices = Great Management = Great Jobs = Job Stability/Security = Happy Employees 

School - And, I have been trying to squeeze in as much "lunches" with friends as I can in case I find a job and can't hang out with them as much.  And if I do not find a job by the end of this month, I'm going back to school, maybe prepare for grad school or something.

 Jan. 06, 2012- Video in the Dog Park:      Turn DOWN the volume, might be loud. Check out my other videos on youtube

Husband and I took the pugs out to the dog park. 

Club/Party:

Then at night we went to one of my good friend's birthday parties at a club. I usually hate clubbing (done too much of the clubbing scene when I was younger) but because it is her birthday, I'll come out. Here is a picture of us. I love her! She isn't like some other girlfriends who are catty or petty about little things. She is really mature and is genuinely a good person. And SHE LOVES ANIMALS!!! Anyway, here is a small picture of her and I (I'm the chubbier one, yes gained some weight "15 lbs of happy fat" after our wedding lol) 

Picture of my husband and I (I see him more often now that I don't work late anymore since my layoff but when I start working, I might not see him as much)

Then lunch with the siblings on Sunday (yesterday). So that sums up my week. This is a new week of the new year, week #2 of year 2012. I hope I find a job soon. Hopefully on my next journal, I can talk about a new job I got :) HAPPY NEW YEAR!

 Oh Ebay: For those who bought the Samsung Galaxy Nexus Prime phone from Verizon Wireless, it is the i515 model, not the i9250. I purchased a Wall Charger For Samsung Galaxy Nexus Prime from ebay and I assumed the ones they're selling is the same. Totally the wrong size for my battery and it costs more to mail it back to China, so I rather keep it and give it to someone who can use it. My bad for assuming and not asking questions. So to be fair, I decided not to write a review for the ebay seller, he seems like a nice guy and it is my bad for not doing my research. He did say he'd refund me fully if I return the product but it costs more to mail to China. Just look how much difference in size it is below: I love this phone by the way. it's really fast. hehe)

Our Christmas Cards to family and friends!

WISHING EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR. BE HAPPY!

My reflections for the end of the year:

So far this year has been a great learning lesson. I was able to rekindle with a lot of old friends and spark new relationships with new friends whom I realize are definitely worth keeping, and a few not worth keeping. I did a "sweep" and a "weeding out". I only want to surround myself with good kind hearted people, who aren't shady or scandalous. But for the bad people (shady/scandalous), of course, it isn't my place to say anything behind their backs, but rest assure I'm not the type to talk negatively behind anyone's back. Yes, I accept friends for who they are but when I eventually see how evil they are when animals are afraid to come to them, there are no words for that but just back out because they are negative energy to drain you out. The hard part is getting rid of them without causing confrontations and/or pointless drama. As for my profession, I realize the economy does also affect my profession too. I also realize to do my "research" about the office that I interview with because they may not be great places to work. Get scoops on the rates of employee turnovers, how much they make annually, how many Opticians they have at their office and how many doctors present at the office and if they care about employee empowerment and employee morale. A bad office would be ones with extremely high employee turnover rates...it brings down employee morale. Domino effect!

My hopes and goals for the coming year:

I hope to find a stable and secure opportunity in the ophthalmology world, it would be great if it was in a big hospital or medical center that's been around for a very long time. Although I am ABO certified, I may also try to get the Certification for the Ophthalmology Assistant in order to work in the big hospitals. I will have to do more research on that certification, I hear you have to be enrolled in a "program" verified by an Ophthalmologist. If that doesn't go this year, if I can't get an Ophthalmologist to sign me in for the certification, then I might go for graduate school. Of course, I would have to "vamp up" my brain first to get ready for either an MBA or Law School. It has been a very long time since I attended any sort of schooling. Well, it's still up in the air, just all talk, not sure yet. I am talking with a academic adviser to the intended school to see what would be a better option for me.  I know with Law School, you have to take the LSAT and get placed in the appropriate Law School accordingly to your score. For the MBA, I would have to take the GMAT in order to enter Graduate School. Both would require a great amount of "vamping up", which also means I need to get better grades for certain classes to "up" my gpa in order to qualify for any of the graduate schools. (yes it's true, I only became a good student within the last 2 and a half years of my last semesters, the G.E. years were ---. I was young and there were alot of things that hindered my studies but I finally made it through! Now for the next step. Wish me luck. And I highly doubt that I will get pregnant this year. 

Life is short. My mom lived a short life and she never really had vacation. I miss her so much. 

My use of the time off I have:

Since I've been laid off, I have some free time to blog about my daily life. Right now it's about 1:50 am and my husband is asleep and my pugs are napping behind me in the living room. Since I have not found a permanent position yet, I have been taking advantage of the time free time to get my health checked up. Yes, that means pap smears, physicals, blood tests, etc. I have been to the doctor ALOT these past 3 months. I even had a breast biopsy with two lumps removed. No biggy, good to be proactive about my health. This is about the same age when my mom was getting very ill and never got checked up. Then she was diagnosed with cancer a few years after at the age of 39 and passed away at 43, but my culture rounds up the age to a year older so 44 years old. Mom worked alot and never really enjoyed her life nor did she enjoyed the money she made. She worked to save money for us kids, to make sure we had enough. I miss my mom a lot these days, I miss her everyday.  My family keeps me grounded. Also, with my "extra" time, I have been organizing our garage, still cleaning out my old clothes that are in boxes from when I moved to this city from the last city. And, I have been scheduling lunches and dinners and catching up with old friends. I've had alot of time organizing, cleaning, catching up w/long overdue old friends, evaluating, reminiscing, visiting doctors, volunteering, participating in charities and pug/dog meets, learning how to cook, spending more time w/ the pugs and husband, and searching for a position in an ophthalmology...I pray for 2012 that I will find a secured and stable ophthalmology position of my dreams! Time to step into the medical field aspect of the Optical World. 

My typical day when I do not have any doctor's visits, garage cleanings, catching up with friends:

As soon as I wake, I do the morning walk with the pugs, make coffee, and then search for jobs. I checked my face book a few times and then clean the house. You would be surprised at how dirty it gets, considering only the 4 of us. The pugs shed alot. My husband throws his clothes all over the top of the hamper and our "walk in" closet always has clothes on the ground. The toilet always need scrubbing and I hate our tub. The dishes gets piled up, only after when I cook and the utensils I use to make the pugs's food with. Most of the time, we'd go out to eat. I do enjoy my lazy days too. My next project I am hoping to achieve is to put curtains on our living room door. The blinds are difficult to pull back and forth and they break. We will see though...I think it may be easier access for the pugs to go through their doggy doors. I really do dislike leaving the house though, I only go if I have to run errands like picking up my medications. 

I am surprised at how many mean spirited people and haters there are out in the world:

So recently I stumbled upon a celebrity's fan page complimenting on their good looks. Then I receive a hateful message stating that I must "prioritize plastic surgery", what does she mean by that? I immediately thought and got offended that maybe she saying that because I'm asian and that I need surgery. So I replied and said "what? just because I'm asian does not mean I need plastic surgery." I should have added "I'm more beautiful than you, on top of my exterior." I didn't know these celebrities do plastic surgery. Even if they did, who cares, they look good! Although I do realize later that she uses the word "prioritize" very often for every comment that she tries to comeback with (running out of words? lol) So strange, what made her say "I prioritize" that when all I did was compliment on how pretty Kris Jenner was. I only compliment on her looks not anything else. What's the big deal? Crazy psycho people out there. Who ever made that comment is kind of pathetic though, it seems as though she had run out of other things to say. Well, my first thought after I saw her awful comment was, "wow, what a bad person to even say these awful things to anyone." What happened to etiquette and manners and niceness. I guess none those verbs apply to her. She sounded like a really evil person, after all the comments she made. One of the comments were flat out racist, she saw on my fb that I'm asian so she wrote..."you come to my country and..." you can fill the rest. Another mean spirited commen she wrote alot of profanity and very strange and rude things. And, she works in a tag team of other haters to hate on the celebrity and anyone who comes to the page. Overall, they sound very evil. Evil people, I just leave them be. I do not want to stoop to their level. They're just angry for the life of it. I hope they find happiness and stop these hateful messages. You can find her hateful comments on Kris Jenner's page on facebook.

Few of the racists hater's name are: J@nel C0rey, D0lly Sh@w, N@ncy N0v@k. 

Encryption:                                  @=Letter A        0=Letter O     

But for some reason those girls did block me from their fb page, therefore I can not see any of their comments or messages if they do send to me at all. I have no idea what else they say after wards. Regardless, it doesn't matter. I won't stoop to their level. Karma will and probably has already got to them or sooner or later will get to them. Good people always try to see the light in people, I hope those girls stop their hating issue and see the light....and the haters hang around the page all day just aiming evilly and randomly at people. Kris Jenner, I hope you go to your facebook public figure page and protect your fans. They are being attacked as well. I only came on to compliment that you are pretty and I got all these attacks from these girls. Again, bless them, I hope they will see the light. Justice will come for them.  Again, I can't believe that there are so many haters out there and they're so evil. Why not embrace light and stop hate. I just stopped there and not go any further because we do not need to engage with evil. Our angels are here to protect us as well.  

New Phone, contract ends in December, Yay:

I am so ready for a new phone. I've had my droid for 2 years now, contract's due in December. I've dropped my phone many times and it freezes on me and shuts down on me every now and then. I am wavering between the Moto Rzr or the Nexus Prime. Rzr came out a few days ago and Prime comes out 12/2, perhaps I will check it out. So we will see which phone will fit me. I haven't seen the prime in person yet. 

My hopes for the future:

I hope that I will find a permanent position in the optical world, particularly in a big hospital or in a big medical center. I do not want to work at another small privately owned office and then get my feelings hurt by getting laid off again. I simply can not take that. I want a good future in the Optical world. It would be nice to have all the resources to open up my own store. Resources meaning location, money, labs, vendors. When I become successful, I would love to give back to the community. I would want to be affiliated with Charity clubs and affiliations such as Lyon's Club, where they take donated old glasses from all over and send it to people from all of the world who do not have money and are in need of corrections. They'd give the glasses to people with similiar prescriptions. Perhaps I will even have own charity community, where I can travel all over the world with my tools and make glasses for those in need.  I would probably start with the people who are in need here first. Perhaps I will have a store that I could assist the needy on the side and meet many more friendly people.

Some people/friends I only want to be acquainted with but not close to....

• Ones that makes me feel bad and negative about myself and/or towards my other friends. 
• Instigators. 
• The ones that claims a true friend does a certain thing but they do not follow them and make you feel bad about it.  
• Those that are just plain negative and emotionally draining, you know like talking crap behind their friend's back and then still say hi to her and tells us she is just trying to be cordial. A real friend would not vent/complain behind a friend's back before knowing what's wrong. Talking behind their back, you've just made then an enemy to your other friends. Kinda like instigating right?
• I have already summed up a list of what they've done in my head, a list of evidence, so if they do try to turn it around on me, then I have evidence. But I have to say though, I did meet some really great people from that particular person. I just don't understand how they could not see the deception. This particular person is a very good liar and can turn it around on you making you look and feel badly about it. I've witnessed it. I've got alot of dirt on this person. Anyway, I just won't allow any negativity in my life. 

Venting/I think my monthly friend is visiting:

1) Very annoyed by irresponsible pet owners. How did you get your dog to roam around lost anyway? He nearly got ran over by a car if I didn't run over there and scare him so he can go on the curb. And when we find your dog, we try to do the right thing by returning him/her to you but you have no identification on the friggin collar? Wouldn't it make more sense to put an email or a mobile number or an address so I can safely return your dog? Stupid ass! A really cute and sweet (looks like chihuaha/terrier) puppy about a year old followed my pugs and I home this morning but when I tried to take it home so I can do the right thing, he runs away from me! So I called the Humane Society, of course no body picks up. So I left a message hoping that they'll do something about it. when I came back from my doctor's appontment, I couldn't find the puppy anywhere. I was hoping that he'd lingered around so I can help it. The dog owner who lost his dog does not deserve his dog back! If you can't even have proper identification on your dog's collar, you do not deserve him. Besides, how the heck did you allow your dog to get loose anyway? Idiot pet owner! You do not deserve your dog back. All my dogs have collar with the full names address telephone and everything and they're chipped! Idiots!!!

2) Folk Song "Lullaby" by Thomas Lauderdale to the St. Jude's Children Cancer commercial is very creepy. It sounds like a song from Nightmare on Elm Street or the movie from the ring where the lady suicides. Great commercial made me cry when I muted the TV. But when I have TV unmuted while watching it, it scares me. Creepy.

3) Every women's bodies are not built the same. Some have a harder time conceiving while others have no problems. The ones that has a hard time conceiving goes through ALOT of obstacles. Maybe they're just not meant to have babies. But they wouldn't know that until they get married and decide to have children. Centuries ago before modern medicine, women will just forget it and not have children altogether although they love children. Maybe that's what happened to some of the concubines in kingdoms thousands of years ago. Apparently some women have very strong immune system and so they attack their own eggs. But the obstacles that these women go through are sometimes painful and uncomfortable in order to have babies. A lot of women go through dating and marrying a man who wants to have children not realizing they can not have children. So sad. 

4) Restaurants and food stores with cockroaches needs to be shut down. Irresponsible! It is so gross and people will get sick. Salmonella. So digusting. King beef jerky (Vu Kho Bo) has all these cockroaches running around, ewwww. Yes, I did the right thing and I reported it. Disgusting!

5) Annoyed by people who do not pick up their dog's poop. Irresponsible and inconsiderate. 

You've Been Warned about these kinds of people. Beware.

In my experiences, people who do not like Animals and/or Children are usually evil dark people. One clear evidence would be them abusing them, physically or emotionally, with no love. And, if they love animal and children but does bad things, it just means that they are lost souls, not necessarily dark evil entities and we the light can usually ween them back to light unless they are manipulative evil dark entities who just wants to trick us pretending. The truth usually reveals.

Dark Evil Entities are the types of people you should be scared of because they are usually very negative for your life, always keeping you stressing, drain out your positive energy, and usually very vindictive people. They will manipulate you under false pretenses to make you believe that they are good. They would lie.

I would get away from them or distant myself from them. I know from experiences. And if they make you feel bad period then just distant from them.

Now, Do Not mistaken it as "being scared of animals" or "fear of being attached" or "can not handle children or animals at the moment because of the way my life is" or "I can't take care of them right now"...if you hear these excuses, then it is okay because they do love animals and children but they just can not take care of them at the moment.  There is a difference between "being scared" versus "not liking".  

So, whenever you hear about people who do not like children or animals, ask them thoroughly about how they really feel...and if their answer is still "DO NOT LIKE...", then I say get the HECK out of that relationship because they are most likely a dark entity. Dark entities drain the light in you and always keeping you drained out. I KNOW from experience(s). And those dark entities will not have respect or genuine love for you either (and do not mistaken it for possession and obsession because that is not genuine love). 

People who do not respect other people or animals, what makes you think that they will respect you? or give a care about you? They may manipulate you and try to make it seem like they like you or make you think that they do because that's what they want you to think...but they really don't. I say get away from them and/or distant yourself slowly from them.